so i finished all my finals, and pretty much bombed the 2 that were actually worth anything. something is seriously wrong here... but the problem lies more in the fact that i tell people about how hard i work, but i think it's how hard i work relative to what i believe other people do. based on what i do, i'm coasting at best. i've got potential but potential doesn't mean squat unless it's put into motion, so yea.. i gotta get on that at some point right? right.
in other news, i've continued to practice the art of procrastination and have yet to start on this paper due today. go me!
i need someone to push me, give me a swift kick when i'm being a bum and push me even more. i'll call them a nag, annoying, a bother, etc. but really, my heart will do nothing more than totally engulf said person with love and gratitude. wanna be that person for me?
all my friends are leaving for home. i don't get to leave until the 20th cause of lab stuff, and i come back about 2 weeks prior to classes starting. will that get me motivated? probably not. i think i've been genetically created to be a really super lazy bum. honest. most people can only do absolutely nothing for so long before they have to go do something. me? naw, i can literally park myself in front of a computer and find nothing to do for hours on end, days, weeks, months.
except i've never tried it, cause i know if i go on that trail... it's going to be waaaay to hard to turn back. maybe that's why i'm overloading myself on credits all the time? i'm going to try and not do that next semester... limit myself, but i think i'm going to be joining another lab and i really want to do more volunteer work cause i'm going nuts without it... ah, who am i kidding? instead of trying to make promises i know i'll never keep, i should just accept myself for who i am and work around that instead. so i know i'm going to be overloading myself. so what do i need and what can i do?
let's see. i'm going to be taking 16 credits of classes. that's not bad, right? i mean, i'm also going to be in 3 labs, but i can fit those around my schedule. i also hope to do volunteer work with REACH again, and i want to volunteer with the suicide hotline here. and maybe at the rehab center? oh, and i really want to continue in the few clubs i'm in, and stay active in APO.
yea, i'm not really good at this. i'm going to go ahead and do everything. because i can.
LIFE IS GOOD!
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